It has occurred to me that I have honestly been overcome with fear. And, I have learned that fear is a force to be reckoned with. My planned out life shattered and splattered on the concrete, and I have been left to figure things out. The very first week of DivorceCare class, I was given a Bible verse that I have been trying to hold on to . . . and holding on to for dear life.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
It has been so hard to believe this . . . I know it is true . . . but, it is just hard to believe that things will ever be okay again after losing everything I have known. My mapped out life suddenly has no direction. My life plan has turned into a life without a plan.
Funny that I have had fear on my mind today, and Joyce Meyer posted today about fear. From her website:
As we saw before in Genesis, God gave Abram a tall order. He said, "Pack up and leave everyone you know and everything you’re comfortable with and go to a place I will show you." If Abram had bowed his knee to fear, he never would’ve fulfilled his destiny to become all God created him to be—the father of many nations.
I feel this is me. I am about to pack up and leave everyone and everything I have known for the past 28 years. I have lived in Gwinnett County for that long, and come July, I will be moving again . . . this time I will be leaving Gwinnett County. I will be going to a place that He will show me. This is scary. I trust the Lord, but at the same time, this is scary. So, I will just have to do it anyway . . . do it afraid. I pray that God will give me the strength to work through my fear and trust Him.
I am trying to be excited about the plans God has for me!! If only I could just let go of this fear!! One day at at time . . . I am praying hard and working on it daily.
